WallagerJenipherBlogPostHeroinThird

                I feel that Nikki Sixx has great courage writing the book, publishing the book, and especially putting all his personal journals in the book as well. Most people would not dare to put anything personal out into the public, especially about this specific topic. Nikki wrote the book for a very obvious and great reason. On page 413, Nikki writes, “Someone asked me why I was writing this book and I said, ‘Maybe one person will read it and it will help them,’” even if Nikki only helped one person, he was willing to share everything for just to help that one person. People are hypercritical and will judge before actually knowing the whole story, and I am not talking just about this book but for many other issues in life as well.

            I can to relate to Nikki in and what he has gone through in a variety of ways. I absolutely hate when people talk about a subject without knowing all the facts that go along with it. For example, when people say just get over it, stop doing what you are doing it is destroying your life, and or the most famous, well I guess you do not care about anything. What people do not know is the underlining cause of why people do what they do. Most of the time it is not because they want to, it is not because they do not love their loved ones/family, or they just do not care about anything, but it is because they must. Sounds strange, right?  Addiction causes chemical imbalances in the brain because of the reward system over load that has taken place, causing immense issues for that person.

            I recognize what Nikki was trying to do when he published this book that had all of his most inner darkest secrets, as well as thoughts. Knowledge about addiction needs to be widespread across the nation, and even the nation is pretty much under a drug addiction epidemic. People are overdosing and dying daily because of taking immense amount of drugs or just taking drugs without actually knowing the contents of what they are about to have in their bloodstream. Addition needs to be spoken about more frequently and talked about in all the schools as well. Nikki Sixx wrote a book about his addition, along with other serious issues that he was dealing with at the time and everything that Nikki has wrote about needs to be addressed everywhere. Something needs to be done, something needs to take place to help others that have been in the same situation as Nikki.

WallagerJenipherBlogPostHeroinSecond

            First off, on page 205, Nikki says, “Showering was a luxury that myself, Mick and Tommy normally regarded as a nuisance, not a perk.” I know it had mentioned that hygiene is the first to go but six days and in other spots Nikki says over a week, I could not even imagine. Especially with their life style and going around sleeping with who knows how many random people, I honestly could not even image what they actually smelled like or who would sleep with them having all those other “smells” on them. Well, maybe I could, I guess if they took enough drugs and drank enough that maybe the smells wouldn’t matter because they did not notice? Not sure about that though.

            On another note, I am astonished that someone was actually trying to sue Motley Crue because he lost his hearing after going to one of their concerts. On page 220, Nikki says, “we’re getting sued by some fucker who said he lost his hearing at our concert a while back.” Now, is this guy for real? It mentioned from a while back, why would the guy not bring it up right when he apparently lost his hearing and why go to a concert like the ones they throw, a rock concert at that. What did the dude expect, soft mellow violin music that floated through the crowd ever so lightly as if it was being whispered heavenly in everyone ears? Come on now.

Anyways, on a more serious view, on page 299 Nikki wrote, “P.S. I should be the happiest man in the world.” Just reading those words, you know there is something deep inside a person that is extremely unhappy. I feel just because you may think you have everything you ever wanted that that does not mean you are literally going to be happy. A lot of people hide themselves in order to pretend to smile and living the life of a rock ‘n’ rock individual could be beyond stressful, beyond lonely (even though surrounded by people all the time), and beyond out of control (in metal status). Depression is a very serious disease and Nikki sure had it bad.

Throughout this reading, while Nikki writes in his journal, he talks about how he hates being on the road or on tour, and cannot wait to be back at home. Then when he is at home he is good for a short period, going back to how he hates being home and cannot wait to get back out there on the road. I think he was very confused most of the time along with his depression and there was just no one to help guide him in any direction, so he made his own directions. Which as we can see were very distrustful ones, physically and mentally.

Last thing, I just wanted to get my feelings out there about their use to be manager Doc Mcghee and that is that he is a big old douche bag. Just saying.

WallagerJenipherBlogPostHeroin

While reading the “The Heroin Diaries,” I can feel the hurt and pain that Nikki is feeling/going through. Never reading a graphic novel before, this novel has graphics are very prominent. The pictures give off very strong emotion to what was happening to Nikki at certain points in his life. I really believe that drugs and addiction is already an epidemic here in the United States, and that more people should open their ears and listen, rather than judging.

One thing that I had noticed that most people would think was maybe a little crazy, was his place where he felt most safe when he was on a trip, his bedroom closet. On page 19 Nikki says, “I would huddle in there, surrounded by drug paraphernalia and guns.” I do not know about anybody else but I would definitely feel safe if I had a gun to protect me. Now, maybe not the greatest idea for him while he is tripping, but I am guessing that is how he was thinking of it.

            Also, on page 30, Nikki says, “Only the dumb of the dumb would do it again. I don’t get sick from it now – I get sick if I don’t do it.” Since he had started doing more drugs since he started in with the band, drugs are now not just for fun or to get high, they are now a need, not a want. There are a lot of people that do not actually understand how drugs have an effect on a person’s brain. Therefore, I think people should know fully about something before judging others.

WallagerJenipherBlogPostEndingOfDeathNote

            Overall, my thoughts are that Light Yagami is mostly psychopath, and I say mostly because he actually does care about his family. So, my guessing would be that Light is 90 percent psychopath and 10 percent of what most people would see as actually caring for others, and not just himself, his family. Since the beginning, even Ryuk said, “No one’s ever done this many in just five days,” on page nine-teen. This statement alone shows that Light is different from all the others, and not in a good conscience kind of way either. Ever since Light had started writing in the death note, he was adamite to kill whoever knew any form of evidence to point towards Light being Kira, then killing them at any opportunity he could. Not mattering if they were an actual criminal or not. Additionally, since the ending of this book does not have a conclusion ending, my mind is still wanting to know what will happen next. As I have said in a previous blog, I cannot stand not knowing what will happen next, whether from a book novel, short story, or just a saying in general. Therefore, I still want to know what is going to happen next in the story, even though all my thoughts are pointing towards Light getting caught and going to jail. Though, one will actually never know an ending until actually reading it, yet still one could think of many other outcomes that could have come into play. Thus, having the mind go every which way that it possibly can go, which means the story could have endless amounts of outcomes.